Why do happy, innocent children celebrating a birthday get murdered by terrorists? Who told you that manifestations and creation has to benevolent all the time. Understanding these from our lower perspective will never make sense at all. Just look above your perception level. The universe, for example: There is constant change and transformation in the process and it does involve creation and destruction on a balanced basis. Conciousness at a higher level just keep on manifesting whatever it focus its attention forth and it does it through everything that is at all times, nom stop. And all this manifestafion can be good or bad depending just on our human judgement.
Kabbalah teaches that the manifestation process requires moving through the thought and feeling of having your heart’s desire and also taking action. Sometimes you don’t get what you want simply because you don’t bother to do anything—like send out a resume, join a singles group, or save money for a new car. Be sure to take action in addition to focusing your thoughts and feelings on your desire. In fact, the effort that you put forth create what you want through your action is seen by the Kabbalists as the most important aspect of the manifestation process.
Look. Yes, you should have a vision of what you want your life to look like. I have a very clear vision. But it’s not hanging over my head. It’s in my pocket. Actually, it’s in my phone. And it changes as I change. They are a list of wants and goals but not needs. They do not define me or my worth. My vision acts as a compass. Do I want these things? Fuck yes I want these things. Will I not allow myself to be happy if I don’t obtain them? Nope. Been there, done that. Never again.